But, this is not for the first time I am in a situation like this where these kind of questions came to me. I faced this many times within myself. I have asked these questions to myself. Every time, the only answer I get is, she is special to me and I am ready to do anything and everything for her. But then I never got thoughts of proposing her or making marriage plans. I don’t know why I never ever got those kind of thoughts on her. The one and only thing that runs in my mind whenever I think of her is her smile and nothing beyond that.
“Speak it out Prudhvi. Even I thought of asking you some of them. But, I was very confident that you will share with me if there is anything like that and so I have never asked.” – Nandini.
“Nandini. I would have told you if there is anything like that.”
“Okay then tell me why did you go to Mumbai last Sunday? When I pinged u, you said you were in hostel. But, you are not in hostel. You went to Mumbai.”
I was wondering how she came to know that I went to Mumbai. After I missed the chance to travel to Mumbai along with Vennela on Saturday, I decided to travel to Mumbai the next day. It was like one of my dreams to travel to Mumbai with Vennela and roam around with her. But, I was not lucky enough for that and so I have decided to travel alone.
I reached Pune Jn railway station and got into Mumbai express. I reached Mumbai by around 10:00 AM in the morning. I was behaving totally like a mad fellow that day. I started feeling myself like Vennela is with me. That is the first time I have been to Mumbai in my life. I don’t know why but I started liking each and every thing there. I have already made a list of places to visit. I opened that and started visiting each and every place.
The first place I visited is Vennela’s house. That street name is a temple name and so I was roaming all the streets to find a temple. But I came to know very late that even though the street is named after a temple, there is actually no temple there. It took me 3 hours to trace her address. It is a very small street with just around 4o to 50 families. I saw Vennela’s house from a distance and returned back as I was afraid that what may happen if I kept staring at it for long time that too in a street in Mumbai.
The next two places are the places where Vennela has done her schooling and college. As it was Sunday, both the school and college were closed. It almost turned dark by the time I covered all those three places which are related to Vennela. I actually dreamt of roaming these places along with Vennela. But, my fate was not that good enough and so I had to do it myself. Whatever it may be, I have done what I planned to do. I know Vennela recently, just from last 2 years. But, I don’t know why, I felt like I had a relation with her from long back.
After covering all those places, the next place I visited is the most special and beautiful place. It is along the main line and the beach is filled with lot of stones along the shore. I sat there for about 2 hours. During those two hours, I was reading all the conversations that happened between me and Vennela during the last two years. I had each and every single conversation we both had in different means. Right from the first message which I have sent to till today. Like a mad guy, I opened her childhood pic which I had in my mobile and talked to it for some time.
As it was getting late, I started from there and it took 4 hours for me to reach back to Pune. I reached back to my hostel at around 12:30 in the midnight.
I was just wondering how come Nandini know that I went to Mumbai as no one ever knows that I have been to Mumbai.
“Prudhvi. Do you remember I have sent you message from facebook chat on that day?”
“I got the location details as Navi Mumbai, Mumbai when you replied. And that is how I have come to know that you were in Mumbai. I thought of asking you immediately. But, I thought you would tell me if there is anything important.”
When they both started questioning me in all ways, I had no chance to hide things from them and so I have decided to share everything with them.
“Suchi, Nandini. As it has come this much far, I will explain you everything that happened.”
I met Vennela during our first Meet & Greet day. And it took 6 months for me to start talking to her. I don’t know why I like her so much. I loved her smile and that is what I was got attracted to in her.
( I explained both of them the whole story about Vennela)
“Why you dint tell about this to us Prudhvi? From last 2 years how come you are hiding this much in you? You never hide anything with me right?” – Suchi
“Suchi. What to tell? How to tell? What’s there to tell? How can I say that I like a girl smile, she is special that’s it. I myself am not clear what is my relationship with her. She talks to me very rare. She replies me very rare. That doesn’t mean she hates me completely. She talks to me very nice when she does. But, that happens very rare. You don’t believe that during these 2 years, I dint get time to speak to her properly. I don’t know what she is thinking about me. I don’t know what she feels about me. I don’t know what is her opinion on me? I never dared to ask her as I am afraid how she takes me when I explain all this. I feel her very special. I want her to be close with me, share with me everything. I just want to be one of those special people in her life. That’s it.”
“Why don’t you speak to her then?” – Nandini
“What to speak Nandini? I cant just tell her that I like your smile, can you be close with me? Can you share everything with me? Can I be your close friend? How do you think I can talk and explain this to her. I waited all these months so that she will feel me, she will understand me. Relationship is something you should feel. It loses its value when you explain it. Its not a lesson to explain and make them understand. When she really feels that in her heart, she would have started being that way with me. I have done everything I could do to make her understand how special she is to me. Every time I thought that she will understand me and will feel my feelings. But that never happened. She is always the same as she is 2 years with me. That doesn’t mean that I should go and explain her. She should feel that inside. No matter how long it takes, I am ready to wait for the day to come.”
Part #4 will be posted tomorrow morning.
I know I am dragging it. But, please bare with me as I have to keep the foot tapping, I breaked the final one into these many parts.